I am Fucked Up
Posted 09-17-2007 at 06:08 PM by sherryberry
I am not even gonna sugar coat it.. I am a messed up person. Sure, everyone's a bit messed up but gosh, the things I think about scares me sometimes. I was at Arby's today and was daydreaming that the place would blow up and i'd die.. and then my thoughts wandered and I started thinking ok, it wasn't that big of an explosion so I won't die.. but I'd be badly injured and won't have to go back to work. And then, it was really the owner who was behind it so he can get money for it. And he didn't want to hurt any customers but since my slow ass was sitting there, he had no choice..
And then I was imagining how nice it'd be if I went back and my work was on fire. The sprinklers wouldn't work and it burns down everything they got.. but then I wouldn't have a job so that's not great either...
OK, I'm a little fucked up.. but I always want to get shot so I know the feeling.. and a buncha other crap. whoo... lock me up.
I'm done rambling and no, i'm not on any drugs or anything. this is just me... being me.
And then I was imagining how nice it'd be if I went back and my work was on fire. The sprinklers wouldn't work and it burns down everything they got.. but then I wouldn't have a job so that's not great either...
OK, I'm a little fucked up.. but I always want to get shot so I know the feeling.. and a buncha other crap. whoo... lock me up.
I'm done rambling and no, i'm not on any drugs or anything. this is just me... being me.
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HOLY SHIT!
Posted 09-17-2007 at 06:38 PM by Nutzoids 
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Wow! Sounds like you're suffering a little anxiety. What would make a beautiful person like you think they deserve to be destroyed? Answer that question and come to terms with it. We all love you too much for you to go and hurt yourself or place yourself in an explosive Arby's environment! Although if I had to go in a fast food joint it would have to be an Arby's... the vanilla shakes are to die for
Posted 09-17-2007 at 08:40 PM by Thotprawsis
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Been battling depressing my whole life. lotsa family stuff that comes into play there. Thanks for the comments. and yes.. arby's is the best.
Posted 09-18-2007 at 01:00 AM by sherryberry
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Yeah, maybe you don't need a gun...spend that $5 on beef 'n cheddar!
Posted 09-21-2007 at 09:29 AM by umm_bacon
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I've been dealing with depression for 5yrs now, it SUCKS!
Wished for a month straight I'd get hit by a car since I'd never kill myself.....
I'm MUCH better now.
MMMM ... meds........Posted 01-01-2009 at 07:12 AM by auxmike
