Its A Time To Appreciate...

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- Update -

Yesterday was my echo which showed no abnormalities in my heart whatsoever. So now I am really baffling doctors. This morning I received a phone call from my cardiologist. I was expecting to be told what day and time I would be having my surgery. Instead, he informs me that he had just consulted a electrophysiologist (sp?). He is a doctor that specializes in the electrical system of the body. They have come to the conclusion that since my symptoms havent been severe enough yet, and they are post-poning my pace maker. Symptoms severe enough would have to include fainting/passing out. So, basically they are saying until I pass out from my heart slowly coming to a stop, they are putting it off. Sounds shitty huh? Yeah, thats what I thought. To elaborate on what I have been experiencing, at randoms times of the day, up to 20 or 30 times, or some days none, and somtimes days apart, I get a sinking feeling in my chest. I realize my heart is not beating. Just as fast as I realize that, I feel a "thump" in my chest. Which is my heart kicking back in, and continues to beat normally. Its a pretty scary feeling. SO for now, I have to play the waiting game...

To all of you kind souls that have expessed so much love I cannot tell you how much your words have meant to me. You all have truly made my past few days of craziness easier. I thank you from the bottom of my bum ticker ;)